Do you know how sometimes we make a life changing decision and feel firm in the fact that it’s not made on a whim, but a product of complete and honest soul searching? You come to the final decision or realization and someone throws a wrench into the whole system and makes you feel doubt full again? I hate that. I have recently gone through the very same situation and now I need to step back and regroup. It stinks because I hate doubting myself, because no life changing decision I make is ever without great thought. I am capable of flying by the seat of my pants and have done it. Some were good decisions and some where not, but no harm was done.
I really did take that elephant I’ve been talking about head on, but the damn animal threw a big wrench at me. Now I feel paralyzed and that is so not a good feeling. I had this charge of individuality, spirituality and emotion and now it has been squished into something I didn’t want. Once again I feel like I am suffocating and trapped. Ewww how awful does this all sound? How depressing? What can I do about it?
1. Shrivel up, move backwards and give up.
2. Do nothing and it will remain the same.
3. Get angry
4. Pick myself up, dust myself off and start all over again.
I don’t know about you, but number 4 sounds like the best idea. Here you are probably saying ”Duh, Julie”. Why is it that the most obvious answers are the most difficult? That is what makes us stronger doesn’t it? If everything were easy we’d all be shallow and emotionless. That is something that I do not want to be or ever have been. So, what do you think I should do?
1. Stand my ground.
2. Know my thoughts and feelings.
3. Speak my mind in an organized manor.
4. Catch the wrench and throw it back.
Keep trying, just like everything else we face through out our lives. We do it with our kids, businesses, friends, finances, family, spouses and so on and so on. When we keep trying successes do happen. My son finally gets a triple in baseball. My daughter creates the best drawing of a shoe I’ve ever seen. My youngest finally understands how to count change. I have a business that allows me to write, help others, be creative and share these experiences with my kids. Got to love that! Elephant or no elephant all challenges make us stronger. I will wish and pray for guidance in your challenges and please do so for mine. Thank you my friends.